Pinotage at 3am

I think the truth has finally dawned,

this type of maturity should be outlawed.

Put away those burnt flags,

those wastes of age

that pretend to culture

and giving little, prey on your

lacking sensibilities

stand back

to let us be

alive.

The still thoughts are left

in distance wrought and reft

that bare stretch,

to halt the weave

and caress simplicity.

And it lingers

in unsteady hands. 

Sometimes, even as I fumble my words, forget to shower or simply fall over both left feet, I can stand back and watch it all happening around me. It’s the strangest thing, this connected dis-connection. I hope it’s not just me who believes global warming is real, that religion has caused more suffering than good, that charity does not simply begin at home. I could continue with an almost limitless list of homilies we are fed daily as a gospel for life. I mean how on earth do politicians keep it straight. I suppose the reality is they don’t, hence the adoption of the word ‘misspoke’ when what they really mean is ‘lied’ (a far less charming motif).

We are supposedly intelligent, insightful, intuitive, we are at the very least human, so how could this mass of 6 billion get ourselves into such a sad state. Why is the highest lifeform on this planet, the people capable of creating such beauty, who can produce magical harmony in science or words or….I won’t go on, why are we in such a state of desolation? Perhaps Douglas Adams was right about mice and the question. 

I think I need to paint in blue and yellow, cook a wastrels meal, drink happy wine and lay beside the woman I love.

It’s the unfortunate moments

the sad moments

and these are those.

and I will lay

asleep, not asleep, a-slumber

it being the less of us

to maybe

smile asleep.

She is my metaphor.

Sometimes I mis-take myself as I wander.

It was only a dream she says,

as I am awake, naked,

and dark to light.

dead of night. 

And we wait.

for the nearest slight in leaves,

moaning aches in eaves as timbers curse

the broken stream.

(Too hot the sun, too harsh the sea).

grounded whorls, muffled splash

harbinger of  whip and thrash and beating trees,

gun rattle in our chimney

And I wish this would  petrify awake less sleeping dark

in all creatures, our blurred haste

drugged eyes.

Look at you

all puffed and stuffed

you reds and blues

you deafening few

you who slumber on hollow words,

the future was past before you spoke

the lives were lost before you woke.

look at you

you reds and blues,

you smug, as fools fool fools

and tell each other the ease of ‘No’

will protect yourselves as grandiose,

but near history will tell the truth

as icebergs pour north and south

and the lost lose their will to buy,

the forgotten will discover the lies.

pursue on moebius, an endless final scene 

and despair this was all it could ever be.

wear trudge and a rictus smile,

resigned to not rest until our echos

are chased from this irregular path.

abject adjectives, circumlocutions

to prove insight to the narrow part,

the marianas of mind.

stumbling, foolishly over tripsy words

and worse rhymes

we raise ourselves up

and call ourselves

poetry.